I don't know what I want but its not this.

So I know I haven't updated in like 2 days but thats because I've been doing some serious contemplating about my future. I'm not sure I want to be a psychologist anymore...I have no idea what I want I just know that I'm not in love with psychology like I should be if I were to go to grad school I have no idea what I would write a thesis on because nothing interests me that much. When I got into psych I had this idea in my head that when I was practicing psychology it's be me and another guy in a room and he's be talking about his feelings and I'd be helping him work through them anyway I could I just wanted to help people you know what I mean? but apparently thats not what psychology is about because thats not what I'm learning...or what I've ever learned in the 4 years I've been at U of W. I still want to help people within the field of psychology which is why I'm thinking of going into psychiatric nursing at Red River. First of all it'd be a change it wouldn't be U of W and maybe thats what I need a change before I can run of to grad school I don't think in two years I'll be ready for grad school first of all I can't get into honours. Sooo thats kind of ruins getting into grad school...well maybe in two years I'll have a high enough GPA to get into honours but who knows. The waiting list for psychiatric nursing in about 2 years long, meaning I'd have lots of time to finish my BA in psych and in two years if I feel ready and able to go to grad school maybe thats something I'll do or maybe I'll go to Red River. I'm not saying I'll never go to grad school...maybe after being a nurse for a while something with spark my psychological passion and I'll have a topic for my thesis, then I'll go back and finish my Masters and then maybe I'll be a psychologist...I just don't know all I know is that right now school wise I'm not very happy research psych is not my passion its my only option and I don't want to do it for much longer.